It’s not exactly a spring-like atmosphere outside, but there are green shoots appearing in our household. The most significant one is that, from the week after half term, B will be going to a childminder three mornings a week. This is to free up more time for work, whether employment from “proper” jobs, or continued freelance work. It’s a big deal as B has never been left with anyone other than family before – and then only very immediate family (i.e my mum). I am actually feeling more apprehensive about this than with his older brother.
B is lucky – due to a combination of circumstances, he’s been with one or the other of us at home for his first two years of life. I realise this is an incredibly privileged position these days and I am far from complaining. I actually think the time away from us will be great – new experiences, different stimulation (and – I hope – less hearing “just watch CBeebies while I cook this dinner/do the washing/answer this email”). But he is still incredibly clingy with me, and I doubt will view this latest development with total enthusiasm at the start. Plus being older he will be more able to express his displeasure, and put up more of a physical resistance.
But the good thing about change is that it happens in spite of us – and I am confident that the childminder (who is lovely and lives close/has kids the same age) will be great with him. Leaving his brother in nursery when he was one felt like a huge separation, and it was the beginning of a new stage for us all. This shift, although smaller (B will be spending fewer hours away from us than T) feels like the start of yet another stage. And, come September when T starts school, another will begin.
I am also secretly hoping that the extra stimulation will encourage him to sleep more at night. That may be a dream too far, though…
I’ve been a bit quiet on this blog lately as I’ve been doing interview prep in my spare time, but this week I did pop along to Prozac Withdrawal to do a post on PND and mindfulness. Please have a read if you’ve got a moment and follow her!